Happiness???

                                

         So, I have been asked this so many times through out the year if I'm truly happy and well of course I would respond... Yes, I am. Just to have a reason to stop the person from snooping into my personal life (not knowing if I was or not), you know...  give them an answer that would satisfy them or to allow them to have a reason to talk negatively about you. But then I would have to ask myself... Am I truly happy?

         Is happiness doing what you want by any means necessary? I've had a few people that are really close to me break down my life and say that I'm happy but not really happy. Like, what does that mean? Someone then tells me, true happiness is finding Jesus, hauving a relationship with him, and allowing him to guide your life down the right path. Then another question pops up... What is the Right Path? Who is Jesus? I know of him but do I know him the way I should?

        In the King James Bible it says, "And ye shall seek me, and find me, when ye shall search for me with your heart" Jeremiah 29:13 🧐 and "I love them that love me; and those that seek me early shall find me" Proverbs 8:17 🥰. These two scripture verses tells you who to go to enable to find happiness. But the questions still stands, Are You Happy? honestly, I don't know. This journey is still beginning for me and I've gotten so many advice from different people that supports me and those who goes against me to the point where I'm still confused and lost. Ugh!! 😑Happiness is a bit hard to obtain because of the obstacles we all go through in life. Some take shopping for being their happiness (like me), but only to realize it was just a brief moment of bliss, then reality hits and then they are back at square one.

         It's been four years since I've decided to be a Sabbath Keeper and just when I think I'm being serious about it, getting a reality check is my way of thinking God is saying "nope, your not doing it whole heartedly, try again". Just like those games you play when you lose and a big YOU LOSE sign pops up but it still tells you to try again... Lol. I'm not perfect, I do make mistakes, and I try to make a conscious effort to correct and learn from it. Still searching for that happiness that I keep getting questioned about. Like, what do they expect me to say... I'm living very well, financially great, I'm living my best life... Anyway, I'll just have to continue this journey and figure what Happiness is.